PROM!

so i know i said i wouldnt bore you with boys and stuff like that but i got my prom dress a few days ago and it is gorgeous! im so excited for prom! its 6 days before my birthday but my parents gave the okay for me to stay over night at the hotel with jeff! his mom said she would pay for it as long as my mom said it was okay and im surprised she did! but she also knew that her and my step dad did the same thing on their prom night so she said it was okay! :D im soo excited! the next thing on my list is to get my shoes but since me and jeff are the same height im going to be towering over him but i think im going to go with silver heels because im wearing a silver tiara :) im getting my nails done for that night so im sooo excited! i know i keep saying that but im almost done! i have one more quarter left of high school! i cant wait to graduate! and my parents dont know yet but jeff and i are looking for apartments by SCF the school we are both going to be going to next year but itll be his 3rd year there. we found a place that has decent rent and a $500 deposit with a $25 application fee. so as long as we both have a job by then and work a good 20-30 hours a week we could be able to afford it and we would be able to have our own place! im so excited! its only been two months with him but its pretty different because we dont fight and we just can hangout and do whatever its not all about sex and not about stupid stuff like that. but we reallly care about eachother and he makes me happy and my family loves him and his parents love me so its a good relationship. by prom itll be 3 months and after that when im 18 ill tell my mom that he is really 21 and see how that goes. he doesnt drink excessively and i dont drink much but i hope they will be okay with it. Im probably boring you again but i love this guy. i can see a future with him. but anyways i still have to fill out financial aid stuff to get money for college but when i move out i could qualify for more money. but i probably have to get going. we have a homeroom today and i have no idea when its at haha. but ill see you later! byee :) <33

long time no see

its been almost a year since i have been on and posted anything. but i think that im going to change up my posts and cut the crap with the guys. sure i have a boyfriend now but im not gunna bore you with all of these details because its all going pretty well right now. but anywaysss, i moved to florida and that is why i havnt posted really but i moved here at the end of june last year and its not the same part i used to live in. but its not too bad. im now a senior in high school and on my way to college. i got accepted to two community colleges but one of them is back in iowa so im staying here because its loads cheaperr. i do miss iowa and want to go back for some people mainly my dad and my friends. its a lot warmer here and im enjoying it here now. at first i was extremely skeptical about moving here but its not so bad after you make friends and get used to it. but the town im in is still developing so there is not a bunch of things to do but chill in the cold pool or watch tv. i have recently fallen in love with the show Weeds. I am on season 4 and half way through but i have to go to my boyfriends to watch it because he has it all on his computer but his moniter is a flat screen tv. rediculous i know but awesome :) but its about a mom of two who deals pot to support her family after her husband had died of a heart attack and is just a great story line a bunch of twists and its pretty funny at the same time but you'll have to look it up. it comes on showtime but i have no idea when and the newest season is the 6thh and you have to watch it from the start to understand everything. but ill write some more later. time for math class :) byee<3

the new guy.

so alot has changed since i last wrote in. me and spencer broke up. he became way too clingy and i couldnt take it anymore. it turns out that a few days later this chick started to talk to me about him deleting her off of his friends on facebook and i told her i didnt have any control over what he did. and she could have him and i was done. she told me that he had a small d*** and i asked her who toldher that. she said uhm no one? remember?? and i had no idea what she was talking about. she told me that he cheated on me a while back and she thought that he told me. but guess he lied.... i was soo pissed at him. i texted him and told him that it was bull shit and i asked how could he do that to me after i trusted him with everything and i completely trusted him and i didnt know how he could do that. he started crying and asking if he could call and explain but i told him there was no explaining in that, he cheated. he could go fuck himself and have fun with his litttle hoes that i know he had on the side because he told my best friend that he did and was gunna cheat again if we were still together. i couldnt believe it. i was so angry. im not sure if i mentioned cori at all. we have been talking like as friends since spring break, which was like a day after mine and spencer's one month. i knew him back in my freshman year but we never really talked or stayed connected until we found eachother on myspace and then on facebook. i gave him my number and told him to text me. he did. we became pretty good friends but he started liking me more than just a friend. i told him that i had a boyfriend and that if and when me and him broke up he'd have a chance. well after fighting about me being with him and all of that, im with him now. its only been a week but i like him alot. it seems longer than a week because we were basically unofficially dating for a while. hes already told me he loves me and what not but im not gunna say it back yet. not until i mean it. well many of my friends are telling me that he is just a player and hes gunna cheat and i told him that if it happens im gone and not comming back. he swears on his nephew's life that hes not gunna play me. and i believe him. but last night we got into out first little "fight". it was about him smoking weed. i told him i dont care if he does it but if hes high i dont wanna talk to him or be around him. he said that he would stop and i told him idc if he does it but all of that just reminds me of nate and his smoking and drinking that tore us apart. i also told him about when my brother got so drunk he put a knife to my throat and threatened to slit my throat. he told me he would stop because he wanted me to be happy. i hope it doesnt turn out like how it was with nate... well more drama next time :)

new day.

ive talked to spencer about everything and how i know that i wana be with him for a long time. we both decided on promise rings :) we are going to get them for eachother and proove to everyone that we can make it and they can suck it. but there is oneguy that has been talking to me alot and i know he likes me alot and i kinda like him but not enough to leave spencer and the fact that im leaving and i know spencer will be there while im down south helps me know that he is the one that i wanna be with for a long time. i mean we talk like we are going to be together forever and he calls me wifey and i call him hubby and we are married on facebook lol. but i really care about him and last night he was in a bad mood and he flipped on me for no reason and i started crying and i told him that i was mad and he felt really bad and that was really the point i was trying to make to make him feel bad that he was being a douche and now everything is better and cori, the guy that likes me, was comforting me last night and telling me that i shouldnt be treated like that and stuff but yeah. i was supposed to hangout with him and a few people and play basketball but i said that it was my step dads bday, which it is, and i couldnt hangout but i might have been able to if spencer didnt ask to hangout with me :) so spencer is gunna hangout at my house tonight and we are cooking out tonight and stuff so im pretty happy :)

life goes on...

so its been a few months since ive updated everyone, but nate and i broke up, drugs were getting in the way and i dont know why i stayed with him so long. he would choose them over me and i got tired of it. i know i say that im gunna stay with someone for a long time and im not gunna let them go but idk. after nate and i broke up i stared dating tommy who was a football player and baseball player who was really hot. i dated him for about 2 months and there was alot that happened. i gave up something and thought it would last but it didnt. he wasnt treating me right and i was done with it. now im with spencer and we've been dating for a little over a month now. i love him but i found out a while ago that im moving to florida at the end of june. i still wanna try to make it work but im not sure if i can make it work... im so confused about what to do. ive lost half of my friends because apparently they think im a stupid whore and its not like im sleeping around ive only had sex with 2 guys and they were the last one and this one. i dont know what i should do anymore. im in class right now and im about to break out in tears. someone who i was really good friends with decided that he hates me and called me a whore and walked away. on top of that all my mom and dad are arguing about me and my sister moving and i just want it all to end! i cant stop shaking and my palms are all sweaty. i just wanna go hide and never come out. im actually looking foward to moving to get away from all of these people that wont shut their fucking mouths. so many stupid people fucking dont leave me alone and let me live! :'(

And I Don't Care What They Say, I'm Gunna Be With You <3

so alot has happened since i last posted on here. ive been in and out of a few relationships and now im back with nate from the last post. we broke up because he was partying with some friends and he got so drunk that he made out with another chick and he had to get some shit straightened up. when he did he told me that he was done with all that stuff and asked for me back i said yes but it was going to be a little bit before we would actually date because that day i broke up with someone. so then we hung out a few times but i didnt want to wait anymore so we made it official. people have been saying oh how long is going to be this time because i was boy jumping. but now im with nate whether people like it or not, I'M NOT LEAVING HIM :) i kinda wanna punch some people in the face because they wont keep their mouth shut. but oh well in a year and a half im out of here :) things have gotten better at home and im doing better in school and hopefully things even out. i now have a job at subway :) i love eating there and now i get free food when i work :) but anyways im not excited for nate to leave. he goes to afghanistan on sept. 4, 2010. i just hope that he comes home safe and back to me. im falling in love with this kid pretty fast :) but i getta see him later tonight :) so peace for now. :)

i think im fallin for ya :)

Wow so my life has been crazy since i last posted. i have gotten a new boyfriend, which is that one guy i talked about last time. i like him alot and im really falling for him. but there is a slight problem... my parents dont like him.it's because he smokes and he is 18 and he doesnt live with his parents anymore. so i went to his house after school one day and my friend brooklin came with because we were supposed to go to youth group later. but i decided that i didnt really feel like going so we stayed at his house until we had to be home. everything was good until my mom started asking me about youth group. i answered like i had been there but i didnt know that the guy who normally runs the youth group wasnt there and i got caught. my step dad tried telling me that i had to break up with him because they didnt like me dating him and if i didnt break up with him they would call the cops but i told them to go ahead and do it because the cops wont do anything about it because they cant. we arent doing anything illeagal. so i dont know but im still going to stay with him because i like him alot. im thinking that it could turn out to be me falling in love.....