Friday, May 21, 2010

the new guy.

so alot has changed since i last wrote in. me and spencer broke up. he became way too clingy and i couldnt take it anymore. it turns out that a few days later this chick started to talk to me about him deleting her off of his friends on facebook and i told her i didnt have any control over what he did. and she could have him and i was done. she told me that he had a small d*** and i asked her who toldher that. she said uhm no one? remember?? and i had no idea what she was talking about. she told me that he cheated on me a while back and she thought that he told me. but guess he lied.... i was soo pissed at him. i texted him and told him that it was bull shit and i asked how could he do that to me after i trusted him with everything and i completely trusted him and i didnt know how he could do that. he started crying and asking if he could call and explain but i told him there was no explaining in that, he cheated. he could go fuck himself and have fun with his litttle hoes that i know he had on the side because he told my best friend that he did and was gunna cheat again if we were still together. i couldnt believe it. i was so angry. im not sure if i mentioned cori at all. we have been talking like as friends since spring break, which was like a day after mine and spencer's one month. i knew him back in my freshman year but we never really talked or stayed connected until we found eachother on myspace and then on facebook. i gave him my number and told him to text me. he did. we became pretty good friends but he started liking me more than just a friend. i told him that i had a boyfriend and that if and when me and him broke up he'd have a chance. well after fighting about me being with him and all of that, im with him now. its only been a week but i like him alot. it seems longer than a week because we were basically unofficially dating for a while. hes already told me he loves me and what not but im not gunna say it back yet. not until i mean it. well many of my friends are telling me that he is just a player and hes gunna cheat and i told him that if it happens im gone and not comming back. he swears on his nephew's life that hes not gunna play me. and i believe him. but last night we got into out first little "fight". it was about him smoking weed. i told him i dont care if he does it but if hes high i dont wanna talk to him or be around him. he said that he would stop and i told him idc if he does it but all of that just reminds me of nate and his smoking and drinking that tore us apart. i also told him about when my brother got so drunk he put a knife to my throat and threatened to slit my throat. he told me he would stop because he wanted me to be happy. i hope it doesnt turn out like how it was with nate... well more drama next time :)