Friday, October 16, 2009

i think im fallin for ya :)

Wow so my life has been crazy since i last posted. i have gotten a new boyfriend, which is that one guy i talked about last time. i like him alot and im really falling for him. but there is a slight problem... my parents dont like's because he smokes and he is 18 and he doesnt live with his parents anymore. so i went to his house after school one day and my friend brooklin came with because we were supposed to go to youth group later. but i decided that i didnt really feel like going so we stayed at his house until we had to be home. everything was good until my mom started asking me about youth group. i answered like i had been there but i didnt know that the guy who normally runs the youth group wasnt there and i got caught. my step dad tried telling me that i had to break up with him because they didnt like me dating him and if i didnt break up with him they would call the cops but i told them to go ahead and do it because the cops wont do anything about it because they cant. we arent doing anything illeagal. so i dont know but im still going to stay with him because i like him alot. im thinking that it could turn out to be me falling in love.....

Thursday, October 8, 2009

In and Out, Up and Down

Everyone goes through relationships, whether they are intimate or just as friends. I have had many of both. There are many people who actually criticize me for how many inanimate(boyfriend/girlfriend) relationships i have. Really i just have learned to move on fast so it doesn't hurt as bad if i get dumped. i also am the type to give people a chance. i dated this one kid for about 5 days and then 3 days later i started dating someone else. I broke up with him like 4 days later. that was yesterday. i do actually like a guy right now but he's almost 19 and he is in the army and he leaves for Afghanistan in a year. im not too sure what i want to do. in a way, i wanna be single to avoid getting hurt and avoid hurting people but i dont necessarily want to be just going around from guy to guy. everyone is telling me to slow down and not be concerned about guys but i will openly admit i flirt wayy too much to not have a guy that im either dating or having some kind of relationship with. but i dont want to be labeled as a whore. But for some reason i dont stop myself from hanging out with nate, the 19 year old, and i dont know. he wants to hang out with me later today and i want to hang out with him but i dont know if i have the flu or not and if i do i wont be able to hang out with him. but i dont know. so on with the crazy life... :)